do gooders

As I sit here in the frontroom listening to calming church music I ponder about life, about heaven, and about how weak I am to Satan's grasp--how I know exactly what to do to avoid him and to stay on the straight and narrow and yet subconciously I seem to do everything opposite what i need to do--why is it so easy to stray and yet so hard to stay worthy?

I know the answer to that question, because Satan wants us to feel forced, like we have no choice, like we have to do it, and the Lord wants us to know we have a choice so he doesn't force us, he leaves it for us to decide. I find is so amazing just how hard satan tries, I mean, I think back to when I was a teenager and I went to Vegas with my family and there was a man on the corner handing out pornography and people were dropping it on the ground, I made the mistake of looking down and having a woman's private parts staring back at me--not a site I wanted to see, but see, Satan tries all he can to get us, he has his little evil doers out there trying to trick us and convince us that evil is the norm, that being bad is good, and that life ends when we die so why not make the most out of it.

The Lord sends missionaries out to try and spread the gospel, but there seems to be so much more evil doiers than good doers, there is so much more hate than love, and then on top of it you have the do gooders who are trying to do good but are being mocked by the evil doers and those who are neutral see the evil doers mocking the do gooders and they feel that something must be wrong with them so they don't listen to them, instead they follower the bad doers, and yet the do gooders are still standing them pleading for everyone to come to Christ, but the evil doers outnumber the do gooders, and most people have their Ipods, or cell phones up to their ears these days anyways so they wouldn't be able to hear them even if the evil doers weren't drowning them out.

as i look at my little boy I see this precious gift from God and I find myself constantly praying that he will be a do gooder, that he won't fall for satan's tactics, that he will be able to see through his lies and that he will know the truth. I fear that i might lose him to Satan, and as much as I want to command that he follow the lord i have to accept that he has a choice and that I have to let him choose, all I can do it set a good example and arm him with as much knowlegde of good that I can, and continue to pray for his soul

I find it funny that after chaning the tone of this blog and the subject content that all my followers have stopped following, and for those who stopped my heart mourns, not because they don't like me anymore (I don't care about who likes me) but because it seems to me that they have stepped over to the evil doers side00I know not everybody has to believe what I believe, but at least I am still willing to be friends with people who believe differently from me, yet others see what I believe and write me off because I have different believes than them, and that saddens me that even these days people are so close minded